It's been almost a month without the use of my computer loaded with precious rendering-at-the-speed-of-light tools (swoon!), and there have been plenty of times during this recent period in which my emotions have gone between frustrated to depressed to just plain insane. At least once a day I feel myself looking at the clock and going "these are moments of my life that are gone forever".
Perhaps most frightening of all was, without my ability to easily create, I've had plenty of time to stop and assess other aspects of my life, and consider just exactly the kind of person who I am; what my goals are. Am I to just slow to a grinding halt without my tools? Shouldn't I be concerned that my day-to-day activities are absolutely unbearable without being able to create, and shouldn't I be making changes in light of this? I should be spending my time better than just staring at clocks, I think--no, now I choose to spend my time better.
Writing is an outlet which has helped tremendously. I've neglected to update this blog as often as I should, and for that, I must apologize to myself. I'm going to use this entry as a form of outlining my short-term goals, so that they can sort of be solidified, set in stone.
- I've felt the tugging to actually learn a new language, and I know that this language must be programming. I have the necessary tools to learn currently at my disposal, so instead of sitting around, every time I get bored I'm going to force myself to learn a little bit more!
- Staying fit has also been an important coping mechanism that has huge benefits for self improvement. I have taken it up ever since I've been tool-less and I've already felt more energetic and healthy.
- I've really got to get a job. Sometimes I feel like I'm not taken seriously as an adult, and I realize that this is because I have been too afraid to go out and claim the responsibilities of an adult. I'm going to actively seek employment and learn to be a go-getter!
